Now, I wouldn’t be me if my first monthly update didn’t come out halfway through the month, would I? Happy Belated February, everyone! If you have been following me on Twitter, you would know that I have been really busy as of late. Long story short, ya girl got her first shiny new full-time job (yay!), was taking a few classes this semester, and still needs to find somewhere to live in the next few weeks. I was throwing self-love to the wayside and blaming myself for not getting enough done, but I am trying to listen to my body and it’s needs better.Getting used to full-time was rough. Slowly but surely I am adjusting, and finally feel cognisant enough to write a post!
So what’s going on with Geek Space Wine this month? Sadly I will only be posting once a week until this move, but having this blog to work on is good for me with this job. This February, I am trying out a “theme”. The big thing this month, love it or loathe it, is Valentines Day. Trust me, even in a relationship, I don’t get the hype. So instead, I am focusing on self-love this month.
Of all of the misfortune I’ve had with love in the past, self-love has been my greatest struggle. This year I made a commitment to care for my relationship with my self more. What better month to kick that off than February? I finally got to a point where I realize and understand how important it is, and how poor mine is. The next step is building habits to cultivate it. This lovey-dovey month, I am not just patting myself on the back, taking the time I need to recharge, and continuing to positively rewire my internal voice. While those are important, it is just as important to make self-love a part of your daily routine so you’re less likely to fall out of whack.
How am I doing it? Well for February, I am starting with three “mini projects”, if you will:
“It’s Still Life” Photo Project
I have come to learn that taking time to be creative is essential to my sanity and self-love. So I had an idea for a photo project to jump start my journey into con/cosplay photography. Pinterest had plenty of photo challenges, but the “my life isn’t a e s t h e t i c, my apartment is dark and crappy, I have nothing pretty to take pictures of” monster held me back. Well all of my bitching lead to the title of this project. Is my life picture perfect? No. But I need to learn to see happiness and beauty in where I am now. Hence my cheesy title: “It’s Still life”. So expect to see some of those this month, once I get to editing them.
I tried bullet journaling, but it took too much time to make it pretty and left little time to make it, you know, a life planer. So I got a planner but missed the creativity. So I got a sketch journal, but I talk to way too many people about my problems and need to get them out. My solution was a creative journal. While I still have my planner, this journal I started lets me do whatever I want. I can sketch, I can write out my feelings, I can do both. The only problem is writing in it nightly, but I’m trying to create a habit of it. But journaling is more geared towards my mental self-love, making sure I have a safe place to express myself so I don’t drone on and on to my poor boyfriend.
This year, I am striving to for discomfort. I have remained safely in a bubble of “do nothing, fail nothing” too long. Discomfort is the sweet spot where growth and learning happen. Geek Space Wine was the first fear I conquered this year, has been incredible and mind opening already, but now that I’m settling in I want to take it a step further. Details later, because I want to have something more concrete to share with you all. For February, I am daring myself to take this idea seriously and develop it. Instead of thinking of it as a pipe dream, I am challenging myself with “why not!?” and forming a plan. So expect to hear about that by mid-March, when I’m finally adjusted to work and all moved into my new place.
So that’s my February update, y’all! Thanks to all the lovely bloggers who encouraged me on various platforms. I was beating myself up for being unable to post like I wanted, and your kind words helped me realize that I am human and need to listen to my body. So when I feel better, I can get back to the grind! What are your goals this month? What are you doing for Valentines Day! Don’t’ forget, today is discounted chocolate day!
– Ave Kaye